You'll get it back. It takes a while to get your chops back when you've had an absence from something. They're still in there, just a little rusty. Give yourself some time- don't expect to be 100% on top of everything when you've been out of the groove for a while. Gotta let your brain re-learn the work patterns.
Are you feeling off about it because you expected to be totally on your game, or are you finding it just hard to find the same joy in what you were doing before? Not a bad question to ponder with a counselor- may be time to find new motivations to love the job you're doing. I used to love my job because I loved some of my coworkers and one of my nurses. They have all since moved on. So now, I take joy in making the mental connections between why certain things are happening with certain residents and their overall plan of care, disease pathophys, etc. In other words, I'm looking at the "nursing picture" that I'm learning in school and applying it at work, even though my job description doesn't require me to do that.
In any case, it's very soon that you're back after a fairly significant absence... just be patient with yourself! Hang in there!
Wendy
CO EMT-B