Yeah..though I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are all right...
I'm thinking that the school bus would be the end, or likely end of my EMS career. I can't imagine any way that I'm not going to stop and try and render what aid I can...30 minute response to that type of scene is going to cause all sorts of unnecessary morbidity/mortality likely, much of which can be easily mitigated...
It's not the same as choosing whether or not to stop in my car. I've got an ambulance full of shit, the MOI makes it likely that I can make a difference here for many...
I know the right anwer, but I also knew it in the last job that got me fired when the right answer conflicted with what I believed to be the right treatment. I just always have this silly awareness that I can find another job, but I can't ever go back and undo a terrible thing, when I could have avoided it, to the best of my ability to see such things, from a human point of view as well.
I've had to triage...and I hate it worse than anything in the world when lives are possibly at stake...but I can and will do it...I'm thinking that this would become a triage situation for me...not the car possibly, but the bus. And I will move on, after they jerk my cert, to something else..
Yeah, stupid answer I know...but it's as honest as I know, at this point in my life and career.
Dwayne