Medicgirl-- I am so sorry you went through this. It must not have been a good call and for that I am so deeply sorry. Ignore Miscusi or whatever that jerkoff's name is... Showing emotion is what makes us all human, it makes you a better provider, and a better member of society. If we never let anything get to us, what's the point of anything. For reasons of my own, I have been feeling everything this past month, every emotion possible, I have felt it. It is lonely and awful. No one should feel this. And because I am going through this, that does not make me less of a provider, it does not make me less of an asset to medicine.
I think those who lack the ability to empathize with a patient is not an asset but rather a disadvantage to medicine. Having the ability to provide compassionate care, means you have helped a patient in one of their worst times. Helping the mother who lost their daughter by holding her hand, getting her tissues, makes you a better provider.
EMS is more than just transport. This isn't the days of the hurst providing transport, where you load and go. EMS is medicine, and with where EMS is going, you would do well Miscusi to change your view. EMS is moving towards being more of a primary provider in some communities, with diagnosing abilities, and having the ability to critically think through a patient's problems. Being a mindless, emotionless robot is not helping this profession. If death does not bother you, you need to leave EMS and do so very quickly. I do not know of a single provider I have ever encountered, save for trolls and you, that feels death is a non-issue. Yes death happens, it happens a lot. A 90 year old passing away in their sleep is not as sad as an infant passing away d/t SIDS, but it is sad. It is sad for those who loved them, it is sad for those who cared.
Do you think you show more machismo or are more of a man for saying death is not upsetting? What are you trying to prove? I really hope this is just machismo and an act, because if not, that makes me sad for you.