I am sorry. The first death that we feel maybe we could have done something else hurts. I have been there. Do not beat yourself up. You did what you thought was right by allowing the more experienced medic to take the lead. Never second guess yourself or you will not last long. Look back and QA/QI yourself then move on. Next time you will probably do something different but sadly even then at times our patients die. In the 90 mile transport to our nearest hospital I have been the last person many of my patients ever saw, and everyone of them I know I did what I thought was best for them at that moment. When I look back to long I beat myself up, so I learned to do a quick review and then move forward.
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