KyleKIR

Wow that was really sad.

I love it. Props to that man. And yes, lighten up people.

Congratulations!

I guess I was just in pain and didn't like that we had to sit there..especially because I wasn't sure what was wrong. Everything was just a random sudden onset. When I got to the ER they began tests pretty quickly. Blood, CT, etc. They administered pain med shortly after which helped a lot. The walls started moving After that I laid there and waited for some results as to what was wrong. Turned out I had an intra-abdominal abscess and Peritonitis. I was admitted for one week NPO -- which really sucked. Abscess was too small to drain and the antibiotics took care of the rest. No other complications since.

Kinda off-topic but on the topic of inserting an IV when not neccessary. I played patient about a month ago when I went to the ER via ambulance for intense stomach pain. (I'm better now). Id say my pain was 10/10. When we got in the ambulance there was a Paramedic Intern along with 2 other medics. They literally sat there for about 5 minutes with the ambulance off while this intern was putting an IV in my arm and then taking my B/P. He got the IV in after the 2nd try. I tried to tell them how much pain I was in and wanted to get to the hospital but they didn't seem to care? I mean I couldn't even walk to the ambulance. Anyways, I wasn't given pain med or anything. I assume the IV was just to have it in before I get to the ER and so that he could practice. They also questioned him about what he thought could be wrong (appendicitis, etc) which is fine..but yeah I thought the whole sitting there was inappropriate. I was in too much pain at the time to say more or complain.

It's been a couple years since I've posted that first post and I just want to say THANKS for all the replies. I'm reading some now even for the first time because I've been away from this forum for so long. 2 years ago I was interested in emergency medicine and getting an education in it. I'm a bit older now (obviously), have taken EMT-Basic and understand some things better now than I did then. Its kinda interesting too, to read back 2 years ago and look back on my thoughts and how I felt when writing that, and to see how much I've learned and changed since then.

I'd like to thank you all for listening and responding to not only my posts, but everyone else who posts here as well. I'm glad I can come here to ask questions, read other topics, or ask for advice, and get responses, which by the way are pretty helpful & inspiring to me most of the time. I've actually learned quite a bit from being here already by talking to some of you and reading different posts. I can't wait till I start my schooling to learn even more. So again, thank you all for being so helpful to us all. I appreciate it for sure. You guys also probably don't know but I look up to you all. You guys are who I hope to be someday. (with my own personality, thoughts, and all that of course) lol.. but you know.. EMT wise. I will study hard and do my best to succeed.

Thanks a lot to both of you above for your responses. I like hearing what you guys have to say, and for me I feel that talking to people would most Lillkely be my coping method. When I talked about crying I was meaning more like shedding a tear. Not break down crying. I was thinking how someone would go about controlling their emotions EMT wise while dealing with certain deaths, but you guys I think pretty much helped me understand that. I now understand that as an EMT the people on scene who may be all frantic about a death, or maybe just a bad trauma are counting on you guys to be together mentally to help a patient the best you can. They have time to focus on the injured/deceased person which can probably add to the emotions, while you guys are probably so busy trying to help someone, keep everyone calm, and do your job right that it makes sense you may block everything out and then actually reflect on things later when things are calm. Thx for the replies.

I'm just writing because I'd like to know how you guys as EMTs deal with death on the job, and in your personal lives. I was just laying here doing some thinking about death. I'll start by saying I am 20yrs. old and have never lost anyone yet in my life. (Family, friends, etc.) The reason I'm thinking about it is I was in California for 2 weeks and my last night there (last Friday) I went with a family member who was alone to put her dog to sleep. I never seen anything really besides bugs die (if that even counts), and yet I watched them kill a dog who was suffering with cancer right in front of me. Was it sad sure, I even helped her take the 40pd dog home and bury it. I didn't cry or anything, but it was sad cause she was hysterical & that dog just lost it's life. I think I hid my emotion and tried to "stay strong" which idk if that's good. Before I ask the questions I have for you guys, I also want to say I didn't even know what to say to my aunt. (lady who lost her dog) or comfort her really I kept asking "are you ok?" I mean obviously she wasn't... Though she kept saying she was. So now to my questions. How do you guys deal with deaths on the job? Do you cry on scene if someone dies? Maybe a young kid. Have you cried on scene? Are you allowed to cry or tear up anyways... on scene or in the back of the ambulance when dealing with patients? These are just some questions I have and hope you guys don't mind sharing your thoughts. And if you'd like you can talk about how you deal with deaths in your personal life if it's different than on the job. Also, I just read this book and one of the quote I read in there said: "Death is not a tragedy. It's a certainty." "indeed, there are tragic circumstances surrounding many deaths. Some die too young. Some seem totally senseless. Some deaths negatively impact the lives of many people. The circumstances of death can be quite tragic, but death itself is not tragic. It is as much a part of life as is birth." It just left me thinking. Thanks for reading.. And thanks for any time reading and responses you may have. -Kyle

@ Kate, sorry for not putting NSFW or something in the description. After I posted I rembered and tried to fix it.. But I couldn't edit my post. (if you can edit idk how.. But I tried) I'm guessing that was an awkward/embarrassing situation with the priest behind you and all. Kinda funny though I can only imagine what he may have been thinking.

o0o0 yeeah.. like those. I'd feel so much better wearing something like that.. rather than big old boots. thanks : )