The verry first overnight that I did with my department back in November, was also the the night of my first DOA since being involved in EMS. A 25 year old kid had apparently decided that his life was too much for him to handle, so he decided that it would be best for him to wait about 200' east of a train crossing and when the time was right jump out of the bushes he was hiding in and lay his neck down on the rail. Train never had a chance to stop, and the kid was decapitated. I understand that sometimes people get to a point where they think they have lost controle and they dont want to go on, but why pick the train to end it. Did he really have to drag the engineer of the train through his hard time. Scuicide is in my opinion the most selfish act that anyone can perform. Because it doesnt just affect you. It affects everyone that becomes involved in picking up the pieces after the fact.