Hello all,
So about a week ago i had my first 12 hour clinical in a hospital (i'am a EMT-B student). It was fairly slow then it all hit at once...
Had a massive head trauma come in due to a moped accident, i held direct pressure, felt pretty cool.
Then had druggie come in all tweaked and i watched the nurses work on him, pretty cool.
Helped with vitals on most patients.
But then it came, a siren went off and a code blue up in the hospital happened, they wanted the students to run up there and do chest compressions for CPR. Immediately i was excited, but mostly scared $hit-Le$$ and kind of wanted to run away. We got up there and they had stabilized him with drugs and his vitals were normal, he was a vegetable, but still "alive" none the less. I was kinda of re leaved because, i am admitting this too you all so don't give me too much crap, i was scared to be around and touch a dead person. I know this job includes this a lot, im not naive, i was just scared, my adrenaline was going but i was scared, we sat in the room for a while, while the nurses worked on him (they were all joking with each other, laughing, talking about their plans for the weekend) which i felt was odd, THERE WAS A DEAD MAN IN FRONT OF THEM?!?!.
So what i am asking is, has any one else had these feelings before? Another EMT-B student was pissed because "he wanted to break ribs and get dirty". I was more stand off ish, interested, but also very nervous.
Just curious, and i am kind of worried that i should not be in this field now, but i will never quit i will keep pressing on.
Thank you
Kyle