I am amazed at the amount of negative things that go on in the ems group. Maybe im blind to it as I happen to work with a great bunch of people. Our station doesn't have the problems of back stabbing ect. I know that if I have a Bad Call one of my partners is going to call or stop by just to make sure I'm okay. We always have debriefing with a unit chief who just cares about his crew. I love being a paramedic even though I was thrown into this career when my brother in law died infront of me (Death cert states "Cause of death unknown" and his whole family. On the day of his death there was NO ambulance available in our community, (it wouldn't have made a difference as he would have died anyways), we ended up with a doc and nurse on scene so the one girl who was an attendent could drive to the hospital. That was the longest day of my life and it had a crappy ending in more ways then one. After this day my friends who were paramedics said i would be good at it and arranged for all my training and babysitting (its good to have friends who believe in you befor you believe in yourself) Anyways how has this career changed me. I don't think it changed me but made think and learn in different ways. I think that I'm a better person as I now understand as said before that things are not always black or white and the grey in between is dispatch. I've learned that when i arrive at a scene it isn't always going to be what dispatch said it was, I'v learned that children behave much better than alot of adults when they are hurt (they will listen to you), I'v learned that there is always going to be some family member who says "What took you so long" and I will always have the answer for them after the call is complete, I'v learned even if they are a frequent flyer one day it will be real, I'v learned that I can and do think outside of the box, I'v learned that just because the nurse hasn't stopped what she/he is doing that they aren't listening, Iv learned that doctors do say thank-you, I'v learned that I need to always take time for me (I refuse to work on sundays if at all possible), I'v learned that even if my family can't understand why I do this job someone will be out warming up my truck when my pager goes off (and it always goes off at 10 min befor the family dinner is to be served) and my plate of food will be waiting in the oven for me, I'v learned many different ways to extracate pts from homes that are not ambulace friendly, Iv learned that the VFD is my best friend and I always say thank-you for comming to the scene so I don't hurt my back, I'v learned that I do this job for my community and even if I don't get a thank-you everytime I have helped someone I am appreciated. I do get burnt out, I cry, I laugh but I also know that I love my job and on the day that I don't I will quit. Anyone who does this job with out personal satisfaction should find a new career. Remember learning is our biggest asset to our profession and learing lifes lessons is the biggest asset to ourselves.
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