Dealing with death and gore

[Chief1C]

I should add.. As I was criticised by a user after sharing a call with a friend. Why do I feel sad, if I said death didn't bother me. There is a difference, in my mind, between being mentally put off by a call; and feeling badly for the victim/family. I think, morally, and professionally, there is something wrong with you, if you hop out of the ambulance, in front of the family, and every in the back is smiling and laughing, while the patient lays there dead. Most of the people I transport, are folks I've known all my life, see every day, know by face, by name, maybe I'm related to them. I couldn't do this, if treating each of them, left me emotionally scarred. I've had a few that left me awake at night, over the past eleven years.. But I also couldn't do it, if I felt nothing of their loss.