uglyEMT Posted February 23, 2011 Posted February 23, 2011 Hey folks, been away a little while. Have alot going on so I haven't been able to get on much. Well I wanted to tell of my recent shift that I finally felt comfortable with myself. I usually run with 2 in the back (my partner and myself) so I always looked over my shoulder to see if I was spot on. Well this last time it was different. We were at our building on my day off checking a demo rig out. More on that in a different thread. Well I got about 20 minutes of demo before the tones dropped. Normally we would have other members respond while a demo is going on (don't want to be rude) but this time it was a time critical call so I grabbed a partner and rolled. Unfortunatly it was already too late but it goes that way sometimes. Well we clear the scene and feel OK that we would be back i time to hear what the guy has to say. Not more then a block away we are called back for a second patient. Someone slipped and fell at the scene. Well now I have a patient and its just me in the back. So I don't have that "cushion" now, I have to do it myself. I run it step by step and all goes well. I have a smile on my face now because I did it. I didn't have to be reassured. Ok at this point we are usually done but another call comes out for mutual aid. Great time to step up again. Fire stand-by. Well we get there and its a fire in the woods, have to hump our gear to the staging area (our 4wd rig was in the shop). We no sooner get in there then we get diverted to another call. Well now this is the call that tested me. Wrestler (high school) that got slammed, had LOC, and was in real ditress upon arrival. Medics meet us and release (still can't believe they did that but thats another issue) so its me, the kid and a scared Mom. Well I run all my trauma protocols while watching his GCS (improving all the time) and trying to keep Mom calm as well. Get to the ED and transfer care. My partner was very impressed at my confidence in the back (he was listening all the time while I spoke with the Mom). Said I handled two patients at the same time well. Well thats about it, I finally had my confidence moment. Ok I know by now I should have had it, I sort of did, but this was my first time I knew I had it. Now I am not getting swelled head or anything I just am happy I found my confidence. I know too some of you are sitting there reading this and going "really? none of that was particularly trying" but to me it was my ah-ha moment. I think this is the first step of many to come now, little by little I will "get" it and become a better provider because of it. Thanks for listening.
island emt Posted February 23, 2011 Posted February 23, 2011 Good for you Ugly ! Everyone has the AH Ha moment at some point where everything you have learned and been taught just clicks.
uglyEMT Posted February 24, 2011 Author Posted February 24, 2011 Thanks Island! Yea it all just seemed to click and I didnt have that nervousness. I guess it is different for everyone and that was mine
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